Wanted to write up a blog since long time ago.
but the feeling just wasn’t there.
Just wish that i could finish it today.
Lazy to manage the blogsite
But important is the content, i think
This blog has been discard for a long time
Shouldn’t be anyone will come to visit it
I intend to do this too, as i wanted some place to express out my own secret, my own feeling
These few weeks, a mix of feeling
As known, catastrophe hits Japan
The sadness, despair seeing the world is being destructed
Other than praying, I could do nothing about it.
But this was not the only feeling
there were kinds of emotions struck me days by days
first was friend
second was girlfriend
third was family
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I think i was just too petty over something
Yes, I was angry at that time
but I was also wrong for putting my anger on FB at that time
I hurt my friend.
I couldn’t understand why I was just so frustrated
Maybe I was always looked down by others
But after contemplating for some time
I found out I deserved it
I wasn’t actually that good, that clever
I lack of determination, lack of planning, lack of perseverance
Even when the time i said “I will overpass u”
I was not that confident
By the way, I was truly sorry for the friend
Really deeply sorry
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Girlfriend
I think I have taken granted on her love, her patience
Yet, now i only realized
But even i realized, I just couldn’t control myself to get pissed off
Always having small quarrel with her, assuming myself is always right
Bullshit, BERNARD. You ain’t right all times!!!
Please cherish the girl beside you, even she has lots of weaknesses that u cant tolerate
but she is the one you love isnt?
Sorry for my girl, I should have control my bad temper well.
Reminding myself, not to TAKE GRANTED ON HER LOVE!!!
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Family
I missed them more than what i can describe
After watching the video, I found myself was actually not that fillial at all
I couldn’t remember what i have done that really makes them happy
My results? nah~
My thinking? nah~
My helpfulness? nah~
I just couldn’t identify anything that i have ever contributed much to them
So, Again
I’m reminding myself
Please study hard to get something that can make them proud of
Please work hard and earn as much to repay their love and sweats
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Ya, all things actually depend on me
destiny falls on my own hand.
If you really want to make ur life some impact
Please start to do something and think wisely. BERNARD!!!!!