Mixed-up

Wanted to write up a blog since long time ago.

but the feeling just wasn’t there.

Just wish that i could finish it today.

 

Lazy to manage the blogsite

But important is the content, i think

This blog has been discard for a long time

Shouldn’t be anyone will come to visit it

I intend to do this too, as i wanted some place to express out my own secret, my own feeling

 

These few weeks, a mix of feeling

As known, catastrophe hits Japan

The sadness, despair seeing the world is being destructed

Other than praying, I could do nothing about it.

But this was not the only feeling

there were kinds of emotions struck me days by days

first was friend

second was girlfriend

third was family

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I think i was just too petty over something

Yes, I was angry at that time

but I was also wrong for putting my anger on FB at that time

I hurt my friend.

I couldn’t understand why I was just so frustrated

Maybe I was always looked down by others

But after contemplating for some time

I found out I deserved it

I wasn’t actually that good, that clever

I lack of determination, lack of planning, lack of perseverance

Even when the time i said “I will overpass u”

I was not that confident

By the way, I was truly sorry for the friend

Really deeply sorry

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Girlfriend

I think I have taken granted on her love, her patience

Yet, now i only realized

But even i realized, I just couldn’t control myself to get pissed off

Always having small quarrel with her, assuming myself is always right

Bullshit, BERNARD. You ain’t right all times!!!

Please cherish the girl beside you, even she has lots of weaknesses that u cant tolerate

but she is the one you love isnt?

Sorry for my girl, I should have control my bad temper well.

Reminding myself, not to TAKE GRANTED ON HER LOVE!!!

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Family

I missed them more than what i can describe

After watching the video, I found myself was actually not that fillial at all

I couldn’t remember what i have done that really makes them happy

My results? nah~

My thinking? nah~

My helpfulness? nah~

I just couldn’t identify anything that i have ever contributed much to them

So, Again

I’m reminding myself

Please study hard to get something that can make them proud of

Please work hard and earn as much to repay their love and sweats

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Ya, all things actually depend on me

destiny falls on my own hand.

If you really want to make ur life some impact

Please start to do something and think wisely. BERNARD!!!!!